Dare to be remarkable?

I actually have time to write a blog and there is too much to talk about. Way too much. So I'll start with the little things:

I'm finally home from UB. Thinking back, it really was an amazing experience. Even though I got really frustrated with the world while I was there. They didn't give us enough freedom and they were really strict on rules. Plus the drama there was CRAZY. Those are the main things holding me back from going next summer. I probably will--but Stef and I said we're going to ask for a copy of the rules before we decide to go or not :D Ha.

Dana--there's a lot to say about this entire situation. Dana is a friend; or ...old new friend. We started hanging out about a week or so ago and we got pretty close. I'm not going to say we didn't have something--because that'd be a lie; we did. And I screwed a lot of things up just by seeing him. I nearly lost a friendship with a kickass girl. I hurt someone close to me really bad. And I lost a lot of trust/respect from people. So obviously I had to break that off. Worst comes to worse--he gets mad. Well, obviously he got mad and called me a slut because he thought there was something going on between Elliot and I & Mikey and I (I'll explain later). So he told Manolis that I was cheating on him with Elliot, Mikey, and himself. Which was not true. Manolis was already mad because ...Dana. This just made it worse. I explained it to Manoli what was going on. I didn't give him all the information he probably should know :/ I will ..eventually; I just need to figure out a lot of other things first. But Dana apologized to me today. I think the best thing for him and I to do is just not talk anymore. It may be hard (I don't know about him, but it will for me) but I honestly believe it was the right thing to do. I could have said it nicer though--but it was just easier that way...

As for the Mikey and I thing--nothing was going on. He is just an amazing kid that is super easy to talk to. So yeah--I told him a lot. I hung out with him a lot. I trusted him. I liked being around him. We have quite a bit in common. But sadly, I don't think that's going anywhere. Nor do I want it to (at least for the moment). Oh; want to hear something funny that I apparently did while I was sleeping? Well--movie night (at UB), I was laying by Mikey watching the movie. We were sharing the pillow and I fell asleep. So APPARENTLY I like to cuddle in my sleep. (: So I guess I put my arm around him and snuggled up to him. At first, he said, he didn't know that I was asleep. I didn't find this out until the day after. And him holding hands with me later that ..morning would have made more sense if I had known that. Tehe. It's kind of like this:
"He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish..."

But shhhhh, it's a secret. Anywho--What to talk about? Let see... Em & I are friends now. Which amazes the pants off of me. I'm so happy about that. Kaseem is always making me feel bad about what I did to her because of the Dana thing, but I didn't listen to him, or Em. But that's in the past because I'm done with Dana. It's over. Nothing left to even discuss. I'm just utterly happy that didn't ruin everything. It's funny how little things can change a lot, eh?

Next on the list. Upward Bound is over. I know I already mentioned that, but I didn't talk about the people that made an impact on me.

Number one-my roommate. Carolina Larios. She was probably the best roommate anyone can half. She stuck by me through a lot of shit that happened. She was honest with me and she trusted me. I told her a lot of shit and she listened and tried to best of her extent to help me. I was there for her when her grandfather died. She was there for me when Manolis ...'was mad.' I died her hair and went with her to get it cut. We were somewhat close at the beginning of the program, but towards the end-- we WERE a lot closer. She started telling me a lot of things about her, and things that she doesn't tell many people. We got really close. We had things in common. We had inside jokes. We had trust for each other. We were both messy. We both stayed up all hours of the night. We just had a lot in common and I'm gunna miss her dearly. You just wouldn't believe how much she truly means to me. I can't wait to see her in two years (: Hopefully. There is no other roommate like Carolina Larios.

Others-Kaseem Jackson made an impact on me because even though we argued practically everyday, he trusted me with things. And I trusted him. We got pretty close. Whenever either of us really needed help-we'd go to each other. He was always honest with me, no matter if it hurt or not. I respect that. Marissa Keenan & Maura Mason- because they always made me laugh. They were there for me, cheering me up, when I needed it. Elliot Fisher because no matter what-he kept a smile on my face. He was constantly putting 100% effort forward to make me as happy as he could. I appreciate everything he did for me. Although, we've only known each other for 5 weeks--he means so much to me it's unbelievable. & I love all the pictures he drew me to make me feel better. I kept all of em. They put a smile on my face. (: I miss this kid, a lot. Mikey Whittemore. What else can I say about this kid? He's pretty amazing. We have a lot in common; therefore I can easily talk to him. He understands. Oh & when he says "pardon me?" --I just want to scream, it's so cute. Taylor Daigle is a huge impact. She made sure I was doing the right thing, a lot of the time. She went for jogs with me in mornings. (: And I could talk to her about a lot. I love her (: Em, well, she's a crazy bi-otch and is pretty much what made UB most fun. She's fantastic. Amazing, funny, etc etc. I miss slipping notes under her door at midnight and communicating that way. Ha. That's pretty much it for students. Rob Hale; an inspiration. Matt Ragan; completely awesome (: Megh-for being my Duo. And everyone else was kind of just a blur. No offence. Maybe next year it'll be different. If I go. Which I am highly considering.


ETC ETC.
Forgot what else I was to write about.

Apparently isn't that important though. BTW--I can't wait until school starts back up; yayyyy. <3