Wow, I haven't written in a few days. I've been so caught up in ..life in general. Well, yesterday I felt horrible because I totally blew off Manoli when he called. I felt so bad because he doesn't usually get to call me. So when he did and I asked him to call me later, he got mad. It was already about one o'clock in the morning in Greece. But that's not the bad part. I blew him off because I was with someone else. Which would have & probably did make him more upset because it was a guy. I don't think the fact that I hung out with another guy is a big deal. It's just a big deal that I blew him off. I was also being pretty mean and I wish I could take it all back!
(I was told to double space between paragraphs. So I will :D)
Anyway, I don't know. To be completely honest with you, I kind of really like this other guy, but I don't want to be with him. UB relationships won't work, plus it's totally not even worth it. I like to spend time with him and hang out, but defiantly not a relationship. I haven't even known him that long... But I'm sure I'm still going to hang out and stuff like that. So I'm not worried about this at all. (KIND OF!) It's just completely and utterly confusing. I'm going to listen to my dad and not date until I'm married because I just want to be me at this point in my life. Although, I do like the confort of having someone by my side to relate to and talk to and share time with. I like to be clingy, and if I don't have anyone to be clingy with ..welllll.
When it comes down to it, I don't want to make that kind of commitment. It's weird because I'm so young and listen to me... I sound crazy & phycotic. I shouldn't have to worry about things like this at my age, ey? Or at least I don't want to. If I had the choice; I'd go back to being a little kid again. My community service deals with kids from about six months to age three, and I'd give anything to make life as simple as it seemed to be at that age. No worrys, no stresses, no GUYS. Just me, myself, and I. Now doesn't that sound like a simpilar time? LUCKY.
ANYWHO -- My week has been like this: depressing, great, depressing, great, depressing, great.
What the Hell, I like change. Is there something wrong with that? But today; I got home for the weekend. I'm going to the beach tomorrow. Yay. Then I'm not sure what. Tell me how your week / day was?
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