I use to think I could have anyone.. until I met you.

I just realized that I never finished that blog about the Great Escape. Ohwell; next time.


Anyway;
I always thought that if I wanted someone bad enough, I could get them... Until now. Towards the end of UB, we started to have a thing. And at the beginning of school, well, it was going well because I'd see you in the hallways and we'd smile at one another, sometimes have a conversation... Now I don't see you in the halls, and we don't conversate; & you're even in one of my classes. Every night, I set my hopes higher than ever hoping that you will realize how much I want you. At first--I liked you; but I knew nothing could happen because your roommate was practically in love with me. You couldn't do that to him. If you couldn't do that to him from the beginning, why could you do it at the end? I set my feelings aside to save someone elses from getting completely hurt... but now I see you every single day--and it sucks because, because ...I want you. I want to be near you. I want to be with you. I want to hear your voice. I want to smell your scent. I want to be close enough to feel the warmth of your body. I dream about how your so perfect, and how I want nothing more than just to be with you.

"He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish..."